Do i have minor rapid-cycling bipolar disorder?

I'm sorry if i don't have a detailed explanation like some questions but last Tuesday, was feeling really depressed. Then, for Wednesday and Thursday i was really hyper, and couldn't stop talking and yelling, and was just really jumpy, then again today I was really depressed and just didn't want to talk to anyone and was just down, and then for a second i thought about cutting my forearm, above the wrists so nobody would see, and i always thought people who cut themselves were just really stupid but for a few minutes today i couldn't stop thinking about and realized there might be something wrong with me. Also, people keep bugging me saying that i'm really hyper somedays and somedays im just really depressed, and i didnt even really realize it until today. I've been getting these mood swings for a few months now, and normally when i'm depressed i think about committing suicide, but then I'm all hyper the next day, or day after and realize that those ideas were stupid. And this cycle just keeps repeating, hyper a couple days, depressed a couple days, and its getting annoying, and i cant remember the last time i was just normal for a day. And it feels so weird and hard to explain, but i cant really control what i'm doing sometimes, but i can at the same time. It's sort of like sleep walking while your awake. I keep telling myself its stupid and not to do it, but then i just suddenly do it. Like the other week i was hanging out with my friend and we stole a couple beers from our parents and drank them, and i kept telling myself it was stupid and the beer tasted disgusting but i kept drinking it. Then we went around and spray painted signs and the skate park at night, and stole bottles from peoples recycling and smashed them all on the street then we went down to subway and screwed around with the people there getting them mad until they called the police then we just ran away. And i keep doing things like that when im hyper, then i do just nothing when im depressed.i don't really mind the hyper feeling so much, but i hate the depressed one. A few minutes ago i also thought about smoking because my friend always says how he feels so much less depressed when he does and im kinda considering trying it, and my dads a big smoker and won't realize any missing. So then i googled mood swings and depression, then i remembered the other day this one girl asked me if i have like bipolar disorder or something because i was so hyper 5th period, then 6th i was just depressed and didnt even wanna move, so i googled bipolar disorder, and noticed that there were some types where you would cycle from depressed to hyper 4 times a year, and then i didnt think i had it because i cycle like 4 times a week, then i noticed something that said rapid-cycling bipolar disorder, but it didnt specify how often you would change moods, so i was just wondering, could i have that? If not, what could it be?Do i have minor rapid-cycling bipolar disorder?
I think it's more likely that you have Moody Teenager Disorder. You didn't give your age but since you stole beer from your parents I'm guessing you're a teen, probably between 14-17 years old. This is normal for someone your age. Feeling wildly moody and shifting from happy to sad to angry to happy again within a matter of a week is not abnormal for someone going through puberty.



Teens also tend to make stupid decisions (like vandalizing public property, smoking, etc.) because of a combination of raging hormones and a lack of mature frontal lobes. You do stupid things because the rational part of your brain isn't fully formed yet, and won't be until you hit your early 20s. Instead of making a sound, logical decision with your frontal lobes, your brain reroutes those decisions to the central part of your brain where emotions are processed. That's why you make so many rash, emotional decisions - right now, that's where your brain is processing things. When you get older you will grow up and learn how to use the rational part of your brain.



If your mood swings are really bothering you, I would suggest talking to your school counselor about it. They can help you determine whether or not your mood swings are within the normal range for a teenage boy, or whether you should seek further psychological evaluation. And if you ever feel like hurting or killing yourself, please don't hesitate to call 1-800-SUICIDE. It is a completely anonymous help line where you can talk to a trained counselor on the phone 24/7 at no cost. They won't take your name, phone number, address, or any personal information at all. They're just there to talk to you.



Good luck.Do i have minor rapid-cycling bipolar disorder?
It's certainly possible, but you really need to see a doctor to get a true diagnosis and proper treatment. If you've been thinking about hurting yourself, and having difficulty with impulse control, you really really need to see a doctor - preferably even a psychiatrist.



Good luck to you!